It’s been a while since I’ve written. There’s a reason why, I’m sure. I just can’t quite place my finger on it. Maybe you could call it a funk. A state of transition. A grieving of the life and routine I used to know.
For a while I thought if I posted weekly workouts that would keep me in a routine. Because I thrive on routine. But I even got out of that. To be honest, I got out of the workout routine (the resistance training part) and have mainly been walking. That didn’t seem to me like very interesting blog material.
So here I am, trying to figure out what to write. The barrier to entry. The truth is, this is just a very strange time. I have a lot of blessings in my life including good health, a job I enjoy, a wonderful husband who feeds me delicious food, a house we can spread out in, a cat that entertains us, a beautiful backyard, virtual dates with family and friends, etc. So many blessings and things to be grateful for.
Yet…
Yet I still have my low moments and moments of feeling a bit depressed. There are reasons for that, too. Reasons I’m not going to get into right now. But I have those moments, the times when I really don’t want to do anything, the times when I want to do absolutely nothing productive and just lay around. The times where I just want to feel mopey.
If you are feeling this way, you are not alone. And I’m really sorry if life is not great for you right now. I truly am. Sometimes that makes me feel guilty for my own lows since my life is pretty darn good. But guilt serves no one. And that is me putting judgment on my own experience. Not helpful. Not useful.
It reminds me of the “We are not in the same boat” poem that has been going around. If you haven’t read it, do it now. Just Google it. It will come right up.
“We are all on different ships during this storm experiencing a very different journey…”
Embrace whatever storm you are in. It’s OK to feel sad. It’s OK to feel those lows even though life is great for you.
“There’s no ‘should’ or ‘should not’ when it comes to having feelings. They’re part of who we are and their origins are beyond our control.”
~Fred Rodgers
Do what makes you happy.